Glorious Girl's Camp

Today I really appreciate my mom! I went to girl's camp for the last week and enough said--I really appreciate everything my mom put up with having 4 teenagers at the same time. I don't think I ever missed my Darling so much. When I saw him my heart jumped, just liked the first time he kissed me. I had weak knees and "flutterbies" in my tummy. Distance definitely makes the heart grow fonder. He is the most incredible man in the world. I feel bad that not everyone gets to marry someone like my sweetheart.

Life is GREAT!

There is sunshine today because:

I had a dream about being pregnant! That's better than nothing! I know that someday we will have babies. This patience issue and me are just not good friends. We only have 6 days until college classes are finished forever! Hallelujah! I might jump off the bed I am so excited! Oh, and David does not have to work tomorrow and that is the best news of the century. So Lou...all those mean thing I never said to you...I take them all back. I mean, I guess you really do have a soul. Well, at any rate, my husband and I get to spend one weekend evening together! I am so grateful. Hmmmmm, my husband left me a love note on the computer yesterday. When I started working on my 8 page paper ( oh that was really fun) at least my "fun" was interrupted by the love note I found from him. And of course, I talked to one of my dear friends Vera yesterday. Why was this so great? Because this month we could barely figure out how we were going to pay our tithing, our rent, and still eat. Vera lives in Serbia. She works two jobs and goes to college, and serves faithfully at church! She is dirt poor yet, she is one of the happiest and most grateful people I have ever met. It made me worry less about the things I don't have--minus the food--and focus on the things I do have--my eternal companion, wonderful parents, education, and America. I felt better after my talk with her. I mean--she was even excited to talk to me when I called her at 2:00 in the morning. I forgot to take into consideration the time differences.
Life is great. I am happy. I am blessed~

Today there is sunshine because:

Our friend moved out and we have the entire house to ourselves. He is getting married to a wonderufl girl on Saturday and so I'm sure he was ecstatic to move out.
I'm still not pregnant, but I have started exercising to relieve some stress. Today was a good time to start because today handed me a big plate of stress and no way to deal with it. WE have to pay all of our rent now and health insurance doesn't cover any diabetic supplies. I mean it's not like we can leave out pump supplies until we get the money for it. It's more like--if we don't figure out what to do, I'll die. And, not in the figurative sense. No insulin- no life! So we are basically up the creek without a paddle. We can't afford rent, medicine, phone bill, utilities, and to top it all off-- food. I'm not really sure what we are going to do, and that gives me a lot of anxiety.
My therapist told me how to deal with anxiety. it goes something like this... Say to myself "I'm feeling anxious because we can't afford all that stuff-plus food, and that means we either have to ask for help from our parents or be evicted. Okay, I felt anxious, now I'm all better. I can deal with that." Sounds like a plan. Today I wish I was my husband's brain. Life in his brain is all sorted out. Everything makes sense.